The Good, The Bad, The Ugly
Today unfortunatly is the ugly. I can’t pretend everyday that I am all happy and pumped for things to happen. The reality is that THIS SUCKS!!!!! I am so happy for summer to be here but I sit inside most days watching from the window, hooked to a IV pump. My parents are up at Moses fishing and boating in the warm summer sun. Sigh………Granted I am at home, but then I watch people bike, run, walk, laugh, smile, play outside. After days of being at home and trying to figure out my energy level is with certain activities I have figured out that I can’t do much. I am lucky if I can properly digest 3 meals in a day. And of course the worst part as you all know is I have no idea when it will end.
Dane and I went to the Second Chance for Life annual picnic this afternoon and while I was very happy to see everyone, I also realized that I was one of the few still waiting for my heart. Everyone else already had their transplants and are living and loving life. I am happy to hear success stories of transplants but it makes me realize I am still in the CRAP stage. With no control or a way out.