Saturday, June 4, 2011 7:25 PM

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The Good, The Bad, The Ugly

Today unfortunatly is the ugly.  I can’t pretend everyday that I am all happy and pumped for things to happen.  The reality is that THIS SUCKS!!!!! I am so happy for summer to be here but I sit inside most days watching from the window, hooked to a IV pump.  My parents are up at Moses fishing and boating in the warm summer sun.  Sigh………Granted I am at home, but then I watch people bike, run, walk, laugh, smile, play outside. After days of being at home and trying to figure out my energy level is with certain activities I have figured out that I can’t do much.  I am lucky if I can properly digest 3 meals in a day.  And of course the worst part as you all know is I have no idea when it will end.

Dane and I went to the Second Chance for Life annual picnic this afternoon and while I was very happy to see everyone, I also realized that I was one of the few still waiting for my heart.  Everyone else already had their transplants and are living and loving life.  I am happy to hear success stories of transplants but it makes me realize I am still in the CRAP stage.  With no control or a way out.

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About marialegatt

I am a 33 year old girl (I say girl because I act and look young all the time) who has had heart disease her whole life. In the last few years I have had severe congestive heart failure and in August of this year recieved a heart transplant. This is my journey to be girl/woman who I could never have been before. I plan to set outstanding goals and achievements and hope people support me along the way good or bad.

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